My visit to the doctor yesterday played out like I assumed. Based on my symptoms he could not figure out what is wrong with me and gave me two options. The first one was to do nothing and see how I feel in a few days or get some blood test done and see what those say. I option to get the tests done, so that way they could rule everything out and then we could play the game of what is still a possibility. Either something is actually wrong with me or it’s depression or something of the like. At this point it could be anything. So if the doctor tells me that everything seems to be normal and what else could be the cause I should probably bring up my issues with the constant darkness here. Or how I feel about things here. I hardly ever seem to do that when I go to the doctor. I don’t open up willingly with doctors on the more personal stuff.
Also more recently my dislike for Oregon has eased up a bit, but I think that is because I am not sure I can or will get into ASU. In order to get my transcripts sent from here I have to pay over $800 in tuition fees in order for them to do so. I guess I need to rethink things a bit and see what will be the easiest for me. If I do not get into ASU then I will waste a semester in Arizona not getting any closer to a degree and that is what my mom is worried about. I can see her problem, if I move back it will push me back from getting my degree in a year or two. I have taken long enough to get my AA I probably should not prolong my bachelors any further. I am not 100% sure about this and one problem is that I will have to deal with housing here in Eugene. My friends already have four people and I may tell them if one of them backs out I might be able to take the place. If not I will have to get a 1 bedroom/1 bath to myself, which really would not be an issue. I rather live on my own to have my own place to escape and focus rather than be so distracted. This means I need a better paying job here in Eugene. The job at the library doesn’t pay me enough to covering housing and I am not sure what kind of financial aid I will be getting for next year. If it is enough to cover me then I guess I will be okay.
So I have a lot on my plate and being sick and missing classes really is not helping. The weather here is so flaky. One minute it’s warm and sunny, the next it’s cloudy, cold and raining. I was told that starting in April it would be nice weather and I would not be missing home so much. I like to find that person and tell them to check the weather and tell me if they see warm temperatures and sun.
